Stars Can't Shine Bright Without Darkness!

 

It's been nearly ten years since I returned home from India.
Travelling and exploring the exotic land.
Studying and practicing yoga, breathing and meditation.
Searching, tuning in with my heart's desires and searching even more.
Trying to figure out my life's purpose.

It felt good being back home.
But all I could feel was a strange sense of numbness, at least that's what I thought.

I was both excited and sad at the same time, never one or the other.
Yet I couldn't find a way to release my emotions as I used to.
Crying, laughing, screaming or jumping of joy didn't feel as an option. 

I often wondered if it was at all possible, that somewhere between Himalayas and Kerala, I could have lost my emotions? Was I caring about the world around me less now?

After doing some further self-enquiry, that's when it hit me!

There was nothing wrong with me. I laughed...
In fact, everything was just the way it's supposed to.

While I was previously allowing the external experiences to shake my inner world, I suddenly felt a sense of calm, presence, stillness and peace in all the outer chaos.

Seemingly, the life was moving as before...
One day I was up. Next day I was down.
One day I was happy. Next day I was unhappy.
One day I was rising. Next day I was falling down.

Yet, there were no extremes.
There was only balance.

Just like your breath. 
Inhale moves up to open and energise.
Exhale falls down to close and relax.

When you realise that you have to both inhale and exhale to keep alive, you're half way there.

Go deeper and the balance comes in the space between the breath.
When you slow down, when you stop, when you cease the movement of inhale and exhale.
That's when the magic happens.

You're neither up or down.
Neither happy or unhappy.
Neither rising or falling.
You simply are...

1. Sit comfortably, close your eyes and bring your attention to your breath.
2. Inhale deeply for 5 seconds.
3. Pause your breath for 5 seconds.
4. Exhale slowly for 5 seconds.
5. Pause your breath for 5 seconds.
6. Repeat for 3 minutes every day or when you feel out of control. 

P.S. Make sure you don't force yourself and change the ratio to 3 seconds if you're struggling at first. Don't hold your breath if you're pregnant, have heart problems or high blood pressure.